Seeing both the sides

Feels as though am losing something that’s the only thing I know I can do – writing, that which earns me my bread and butter. Am I really? Is it the writing that am losing, or is it the thinking. Nah! I can’t believe..I know I can’t lose what I am…what am actually losing out on is the patience to stay on with myself and decipher the thoughts am thinking. Probably that’s the root of all my troubles – not knowing why am doing what am doing. Till date my only and strongest driver has been that ease of being myself. I exactly knew what am doing and why. I could see both my sides and accept them as well. Now I don’t make any effort to see anything..I just let things go on..therefore both the sides are in dark now..hence the doubts, hence the questions…but that’s again a phase..leme enjoy it

It’s all Beautiful Today

I feel awsome today somehow. Don’t know howcome. It’s a beautiful day today, just too lovely. I am at home, working and listening to music, with my princess besides me playing with all my office stuff. I am relaxed, almost like a holiay. It’s just so wonderful.

I feel like doing so many things, write something lovely, go down to some amazing regions of my imagination. Think something I haven’t thought earlier, wonder why did  Babamoni say what he said. I feel wonderful today. I want to romance with him, but he has to earn and be mundane while he earns. I can afford this luxury of not doing anything yet having a laptop and enjoy writing.

I want to make the fullest of today. But what should I do? I love today. Am afraid to wish to be by his side today, but that would be the ideal thing…anyways now that it can’t happen. Let me think what interesting I can do today and I will get back to you.